These past couple of months have been pretty rough for me. I was going through so much and i was so in denial. I broke down a lot and realized and learned a lot. Every time i go through these phases of mini depressions i break down, i try to shut everyone out and shut myself down. The only person that understands me and let me go through it because he knows only i can make self better is Mario. It blows my mind how much he knows and still he's here for me 100% so 3 months is all it took for me to realize that i was going through a heart break and i feel completely embarrassed. i never thought my first real heart break would be like this... lol can my life get any more lame? but i am glad i am starting to come to my senses and move on. i can't be like this, i can't get love a chance to hurt me anymore. I have chosen a path that i want, i want my career.. i need be focus and on point. Love, i feel like it only slows me down and breaks me. I guess Mario is right, i am not a typical kind of girl.. i don't go through phases like everyone else and i come to realize that. I hope what i am doing is for the best for myself, i guess you can say.. when it comes to love "i am a tough cookie!" haha